December 2009
14 posts
UGH
It is not even funny how my life is right now.
The past few days at work were nothing but endless stream of emails with UNREASONABLE, UNFATHOMABLE requests and questions as well as phonecalls from RUDE, ARROGANT people who thought that persisting persuasion work on me except that it does not because if there is going to be someone who is persistent in the world, it is ME!
It feels like one...
The final goodbye
Today is one of the saddest days in the 22 years of my life.
For the past week, I have been spending hours with them and have built such a strong bond, it breaks my heart knowing that in another few hours, they will be adopted and the quick visit during lunch would be the last time I will see them ever again.
I love them the moment I laid eyes on them and it did not take me long to be head over...
Robot in disguise
My body clock is seriously messed up with my sleeping time getting later by the day. It was 2am, 3.30am and now at 4.08am i I am still wide awake.
Maybe chronic fatigue will no longer be something I laughed about when I finally suffer from it after the prolonged period of sleep deprivation. Then I will walk like robot, speak like robot and process information like robot. Being a human simply...
Walk by faith
Post holidays is always a good time for reflection and reorganising of life’s priorities.
This little getaway has done me much good, it was a fantastic time of fellowship, feasting, recreational activities and honest sharing that truly blessed my heart. The two days were stretched with minimal sleep, feeding time at an interval of three hours, too many activities to do and plenty of...
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Light at the end of the tunnel
There is a part of me that is still feeling very disassociated from reality. It is a little difficult to function properly; I left out my cell yesterday and my wallet today, spilled honey water in my bag, haphazardly emptied my bag and cleaned the stained items…
Well, at least I remembered my phone today.
I am not living with regret. Just coping with emptiness and guilt. Who...
“It’s okay. It’s okay to want someone you can’t have. It’s okay to want something...”
– (via runawaytrain)
God is good
Truth is, at this point in time, I could not identify the emotions that shadowed me.
There was no angry shouting, no spite, no hysterical bawling but just two heartbroken souls, resigning to the end of things with an unspoken hope.
The 3 longest days of my life and more to come…
The past few days were kept busy with work and children’s camp. Watching the little ones worshipping and learning...
“THE MURDEROUS FINAL GOODBYE”
– a myriad of emotions that are slowly eating me from inside. A part of me is wilting but there is this slight relief that buried among all the other negative thoughts.
We did not manage the fairytale ending. It was not happily ever after and love failed to sustain us.
The only person who is...
November 2009
7 posts
“When i can’t express
what i really feel
i practice feeling
what i can...”
– Nikki Giovanni - Choices
October 2009
26 posts
You know you are in love when your heart is making...
(via runawaytrain)
and I know I am in love, I am so in love!
Yesterday evening, Clement and I had an impromptu dinner date with his army friends. Over steamboat (lots of beef, crabs and clem note: pun intended. hahaha) and out of the world ice cream at Udders, I was overflowing with lovelovelove and food by the time we concluded the night.
I have to say this again and again, but I am so happy...
Drugged in the morning
Yesterday’s rest was better than expected. Instead of moping around, I have decided to.do.something about the issues that have been bugging me and today, the plans were implemented!
First on the list, to terminate the private bus rides to work every morning. Forcing myself to get out of the house for a run when I am barely out of slumberland proved to be a challenge for the past year. Thus,...
Thank God
Why is it so hard to translate thoughts into words? Here am I, on this space, doing mindless typing for the past hour or so yet has unsuccessfully found the appropriate words to aid in the conjuring of the breathtaking view that blew me away earlier this morning.
It struck me that something was wrong when I woke up on Sunday morning, thinking that it was Monday and was immediately filled with a...
Such is life!
Afternoon off from work yesterday and spent a good part of it with honeypie having grilled pork cheese sausage, hocklam beef noodles (they were out of the dry ones!), desserts and a new discovery of a bike shop at Chin Swee that sells accessories at a relatively lower price.
On top of that, honeypie so sweetly bought a bar of chocolate for me to snack on during my late night revision with...
“ONE.
Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO.
...”
– Chinese Tantra Totem
“Just because I’m quiet, doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say.
Just because I...”
– (via runawaytrain)
My unwavering love for you
Too much details to be put into words.
Unfortunately, this started off on the wrong foot and letting things be for the next few months has not salvage the situation at all. It has come to a point where friendship and coexisting is out of the question.
My patience is waning.
So what if my love for you is unwavering? It still does not make things better.
Death
I used to wonder whether would I see my grandmother walking by when I was waiting for my bus by the road in the morning.
Her schedule did not change for as long as I can remember. It was always to that coffee shop for coffee at her makeshift table which she kept in a storeroom at the void deck. I remembered the one time I went there to accompany her, I was surprised when she whipped out a bunch...
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I ___ you ____ and ____.
The sky has been overcast since morning, perfect weather to sleep in except that I am an hour away from home, in a room that spans across the level, sitting in front of a computer just like the tens of people around me, typing away aimlessly in order to look busy while impatiently waiting for the second hand to crawl round the clock.
This week has been relatively easy,...
“Stranded in August
The weather was a pattern of hot and hotter
The days...”
– J.C. Hewitt
September 2009
10 posts
“Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a...”
– Things I want my Daughters to Know by Elizabeth Noble
Puzzled
What do people in a relationship do?
Definitely not this.